Sebelum Terlena..

Sebelum mata terlena
dibuaian malam gelita
tafakur ku dipembaringan
mengenangkan nasib diri
yang kerdil
lemah dan bersalut dosa
mampukah aku mengharungi titian sirat nanti
membawa dosaku yang menggunung tinggi
terkapai ku mencari limpahan hidayahmu
agar terlerai kesangsian hati ini....
sekadar air mata tak mampu membasuhi dosa ini
sebelum mata terlena
dengarlah titipan hati ini
Tuhanku..
beratnya dosaku
tak daya ku pikul sendiri
Hanyalah rahmat dan kasih sayangMu
yang dapat meringankan
hulurkan maghfirahmu
Andaikan nya esok bukan milikku lagi
dan mata pun ku tak pasti akan terbuka lagi
sebelum berangkat pergi ke daerah sana
Lepaskan beban ini yang
mencengkam jiwa dan raga..
selimuti diriku dengan sutera kasih sayangmu
agar lena nanti ku mimpikan syurga yang indah abadi
pabila kuterjaga dapat kurasai
betapa harumnya wangian syurga firdausi
Oh illahi,
Di sepertiga malam sujudku
menghambakan diri..
akan ku teruskan pengabdianku padamu..

(Hijjaz:Sebelum Lenaku)
p/s: antara lagu yg memahami kehendak dalaman aku..antara lirik yg mceritakan apa kemahuan aku..

hari ke-4

dah 4 hari..cmni..
sakit yg semakin sakit.
lali dgn penyakit yg x da makna apa2 pada aku..
hoping cpt smbuh..
rehat?
NO way!..rehat buat aku manja dgn sakit..
or maybe coz i read sum1 idea resting only makes sickness bcum worse!
thats why aku buat xtau yg aku sakit..
uuh...

*tapi apesal benda ni buat aku makin lemah??
nak bangun pening yang amat..lemah!benci btul bila jadi camni..
im not doing sumthg stupid to make myself suddently sick..
shit!for wat?
in pain dgn sengaja..??
mna aku tau aku nak sakit?and its happen make me suffer so much..
rs sakit yang buat aku nak tjatuh setiap kali berdiri..
blank for a moment..
dan aku mengucap..setiap kali tidur dan bangun..
perit yg menyebabkan aku rasa,cukup la.....aku tak daya nak tahan..
texting....texting..write a simple msg
hoping he pick me up..
at least he knw her daugher in dem sick..?!!
for him yg xpenah nak ambik tau!
demam,bengkak kat leher..pucat,mata yg merah dan sakit..
shit!langsung x endah..
well actually i never let him knw wat happen to me..
wen im really dat sick, pain, atau susah....
only let him knw
proudly to let him knw if sumthg positif happen,kejayaan...
or sumthg yg mmbanggakn..or my show going well>>>without his support!

coz i knw he never cares!
i knw he always like dat..as long she with him.
Suddently aku rasa sakit luar makan kat dalam......
yang rasanya lebih sakitt sampai aku jadi..
Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrggh~!!
try to avoid this sickness
im doing sumthing yg leh wat dia tau..
aku bleh hidup pon wthout parents!
without support..
well hoping dia hidup bahagia ngn family baru dia..
shit...bende ni buat aku sedih gile!!!

entahh la........

Celebrity Hair: Vanessa Hudgens

She can sing, she can dance, she has a fabulous sense of bohemian style and by the time she was 18 she had Hollywood at her feet. Now 21, the very talented Vanessa Hudgens is something of a beauty icon as well, with an enviable head of shiny dark hair that falls nearly to her waist. She's smart enough not to tarnish her natural dark brown mane with a foray into blondeness, and because of this, her locks are always in top condition. Here are some great photos of Vanessa Hudgens' hair.

What is Your style?

Aku baru perasan style aku x berubah2 lgsung!mksud aku dri bulan jan sampai februari cmtuh gak stail rmbut aku...huuuh sedey giler2!!!wat happen ?? huhu 1 nite aku cuba la konon2nya nak ubah stail cmne kan..>>mane tau dapat idea utk mggayakn stail rmbut baru bila aku kuar nnt kan..kan..:p perrggh~mksud aku..xla boring aku tgk asek sama ja stail aku..huhu! agak2 cmne nak ubah eyh??nak ikat ke..nak sikat belah tepi ke..nak sanggul ka..nak potong rambut ka..huumph ini la yg terjadi>>lets found out~ T_T arrghh i need hair stylist~ wuuaa!!

ok lets get the party started!

step 1: use hairban

hummph..NO!

2. gune klip ?

uhh!!yuck~too gurly!!!!huh~NO!

3. sanggul kot?

chopp!chop..eyyh~ klip sat...

Huh?!!yaaaiiick!!

4. huuu~selalu sgt!

hee~belah tepi tapi rmbut sanggul!

Uuuhhh..NO!

6. Eeeeyyyhh~pa kata aku kuar ikat kaammbeng!sighh~**menakootkan!

7..uuuwaaa~biar btoool!!

8.totally NO!bored~

9.buat jambul kat atas mcm singh bleh x??

10.adeehhh terbang la plakk!!

11. Macam Hantu!!!ni coobaan sikat gune jarii pon boleey*sikat belah kanan (erk..camera mmg nmpk seolah2 kiri)

12.klip tepi kot??

13.pakai cenggini pastu kuar bleh x??pastu org kutuk

Gileer!SENGET budak ni!!

14.kalau ikat kat belakang but still wear hairban?

15.hairban semua rmbut yg bjurai kat belakang!

16.perrgh~belah tgh plak?!

17.aku rasa aku mcm isteri mariln Mansion!!wakaka

wuuaarghh~pening2..

17.Klip atas,pastu ikat belang ni..

18.uhhh..aku makan jugak rmbut niee eeii kalo geramm!

19.what if trus je pkai spek??

20..huuuh skemaanye aku!!

20.wait ta minit~choop!chop!!

23..but this is me??uuuhh skema n nerd?

hiiik~wat eva..!yg penting kuar wake up,dress up, show up!cnfdent je be urself^_^v

*********************2 jam selepas itu********************

aku wat facial muka dgn senang hati hehoheoho

Tadddaaa!!!

Nyuum..nyuum..mcm men tanah liat..

Aedddeeh nak bersin!!Aaa..aa..arr

AAa..aaachiiiiuuumm!!!!

ooww..oww..abih!abiihh~abihhh pecah retakk..tempek balik!

huuuuuuuu..siggh~gerammmT_T wuuu...my facee~uuh!!

Interesting things about me?

1. I've never had a broken bone

2. I met my 1st adopted cat in the bush when my parents moved in Sabah. Second cat dat I found and adopted was a cat with ears dat been cut off by someone vry cruel! Poor kitty~

3. When I was doing my stuff, cleaning and laundry suddenly a flying stupid cockroach, by accident landing and kiss my innocent lips! Arghh~!! I almost died! – I was shocked and I couldn't breath~jerks! [True horror story]

4. The week before SPM I lost my identity card. Someone stole my purse.(even worse I knw who did it!!!)

5. I've won The Best Script in Monodrama-USM with Rm1000 and trophy. The script is totally my hand make and a true story bout my life.

6. When I was in high school, I wanted both of my ears pierced, my parents refused, so I did it w/a needle & ice! LMAO by myself-- it didn't last long, but I got what I wanted. to this day, I still want to get my ears pierced [professionally] but I haven't yet & my frens don't like the idea, which is what's holding me back, but I'm okay with it now... :(

7. I finally got crush with someone 2001 >>1st love? Aha! Maybe yes and maybe not! :p ironicly we study at the same school but i never got a chnces to tell that guy bout my feeling(I quit pasif n shy>>dwuh!). Until one day I heard really bad news bout him.He died in heart cancer.So I declared my 1st love is never ever actually happen.(dramatic huh)

*But I will love sum one dun wori..coz I got only 1 heart to share 4 rest of my life.*

lets get started

I have to answer all of these questions--but my answers have to be one word only...Let's get started!

1. Where is your cell phone? Desk

2. Your hair? Longer

3. Your mother? Far

4. Your father? Outstation

5. Your favorite food? Sundae

6. Your dream last night? Weird.

7. Your favorite drink? Nescafe 

8. Your dream/goal? P.H.D

9. What room are you in? Room

10. Your hobby? Art

11. Your fear? swimming

12. Where do you want to be in 6 years? P.H.D..

13. Where were you last night? Bed

14. Something you aren't? Sleeping

15. Muffins? Chocolate

16. Wish list item? Perfume

17. Where did you grow up? Sabah

18. Last thing you did? Sneezing

19. What are you wearing? Singlet

20. Your TV? Off

21. Your pets? Cat !

22. Your friends? Around

23. Your life? Improving

24. Your mood? Swings

25. Missing someone? Absoutely

26. Vehicle? None

27. Something you're not wearing? Ring

28. Your favorite store? 1B

29. Your favorite color? BLACK

30. When was the last time you laughed? Today.

31. Last time you cried? Yesterday

32. Your best friend? *shrugs*

33. One place that I go over and over? Kitchen

34 One person who call u today.never

35. Favorite place to eat? Home